so i've been riding oliver a lot now. it's helping. i mean, NOT riding would be harder for me. i'm so glad he's not being an asshole either. he's being such a good boy. <3

i miss mac even more now. but all wounds heal, right?

im doing better about mac. it's hitting me pretty hard now.
i miss him, a lot.
but it's to be expected.

i've been riding oliver a lot. thank god he isn't lame. im sure my horsey-friends will agree that without any kind of horse interaction it would make mac's going a lot harder. im grateful i still have that buckskin loser of a horse, heh.

the weird thing is that, before i could talk about mac with people and stuff but today i heard one of my good friends talking on the phone to someone about "the quarter horse that died" and it totally just tore me up inside. i know she didn't mean any harm, but its starting to bother me to look at his pictures and stuff now. but it doesn't make me like, full out cry. it just makes me miss the "good old days."

i love him too much to NOT look at the pictures, lol. <3 I love my big, old, cranky, creaky boned QH <3

i apologize to the people who i had hurt through my reckless post. i was having a hard day, as can be imagined, and was just pretty much pissed off. things are easier to write over the internet when you just tap in the keys, and i would NEVER have said any of that to any of you guys in person. for that, i am sorry.

im trying to get together and post some pictures of mac stock. you are welcome to use them, just dont abuse my rules please.

love you all, and i mean it.

p.s. i have a KILLER cold. and 4-h testing next week. im deciding whether or not it's worth it to do this year...

right now i was expecting people on here to offer support for the events that occured to me but no, no one has even personal messaged me offering help. im struggling through this time, losing my best friend and no one on here even goddamn cares.

i thought that there were some people on here i could count on, as i was there for THEM when their pets died or when they needed a kind word. NO ONE has even glanced at my page to offer any kind of support.

screw you all.

Well, clearly a lot has happened since I was gone.

While away on vacation, Zephie was put down due to age and leg problems. I knew about it, so it wasn't really shocking. I miss her though.

During the end of August, my best friend, Mac, passed away after struggling with colic and his stomach ruptured. I was told the news this morning by my best human friends. They didn't tell me while I was away, and I can see why. The news hasn't hit yet, but it will.

And at last, but not least, one of my friend's horses was tragically involved in a accident and passed away in September. His name was Czar.

Let your wings carry you to heaven, my friends.

just a quick note thanking everyone for the favorites, comments and pictures throughout the time iºve been in portugal. yes, im still here. more specifically, in porto santo

ttyl!